Lately because of financial difficulties, I haven't been eating as much as I would like to. I didn't realise just how serious my not eating is until everyone around me keep telling me the same thing: PLEASE EAT!!
For those who don't know me personally, I have a height of 154 and current weight is 43.5 kg. BMI puts me as underweight.
I want to emphasize here I do not have an eating disorder, I just haven't been eating much because I don't have the moolah to satisfy my huge appetite, so I've cut down daily food intake by half. I love food. I'm craving for Korean food at the moment.
I don't want to tell my dad because he'll think I've been spending money on useless things again, but I haven't been. I have just underestimated how much debt I had and paid them all off without thinking about money for myself. So I kinda landed myself in hot water, haha.
On another note, Caesar invited me to visit Canada with him during the Easter holidays, which I HAVE TO TURN DOWN eventhough visiting Canada (or staying there permanently, for the matter) is my lifetime wish. The timing just isn't right. I have a mapping fieldtrip to Spain during the Easter holidays, which kinda cut into reading week and I'm worried I won't have much time to revise for exams, which starts in May.
Then immediately after exams I'll have another mapping project again in North Wales, which thankfully is not too far away, but that will take me another 5 weeks. As I'm super not confident in the exams at all, I plan on staying behind and go back to Brunei in late August, which is SUPER LATE but my mom insisted.
So yes, I will eat as much as I used to when my moolah says I can. Hopefully by then I can put some weight on too..
What is says about you: You are a powerful person. You appreciate tradition and wisdom that comes with age. You may meet people who are afraid of you. You depend on modern technology and may feel uncomfortable without it.
Hi there. How are you? How is school? Not too hard? Good, good. Hmm, what is that? No, nothing bad is happening to you this year. In fact, I promise you a magical birthday month. You'll see.
Have anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Don't go screw them up now - and don't listen to mom. She doesn't know what she's talking about. Eyes that can see in perfect darkness is pretty awesome, hey? Keep it up.
Worried about Math...simultaneous equations? Hmm...oh yeah. That looks pretty hard. I'd tell you to stick to substitution method, but you need to try elimination sometimes too. Don't give me that look. You're going to need to know how to use that damn method too, trust me.
Hey...where are you looking...oh. Oh. OHHH. He is cute, isn't he. Stop staring at him, that's creepy haha. You silly girl. Hmm? Oh...he'll treat you well, he will. Just not in the way you expect it.
Yeah...I'm wearing makeup. Pretty neat huh. You'll wear it in a few years' time, I assure you. Not ever? Forget about that time in Form 1 haha. Yes, the guys' reactions were disgusting, but still. Don't worry about those things too much haha. It's not time yet. Relax.
Advice? Oh, just take it easy. PMB isn't that hard, trust me. You'll do great. Just do what you think is right. Ah, that's right. Don't agree to go to Lily's birthday party. It's not going to be pretty. You'll hear some pretty interesting things afterwards, tho.
I need to run now, but you be a good girl, aye? You future is going to be awesome. Trust me, I know.
