Translation I want (us) to be together forever but Things I don’t like about you seem to Increase by each passing day
We’re like-minded, aren’t we? I feel like I understand
I cannot begin to tell you how much I was, and am affected by the lyrics to this song that is the A-track in YUI's upcoming single, to Mother. It feels exactly like...coming home after a long absence, after a trivial fight with the woman whom I call my mother, and discovered she has long forgiven me.
My mother and I have this really complicate love-hate relationship. She can be a delightful person to hang out with, and the next minute she will be red-faced, angered by trivial things. Her mood swings is one I grow up getting used to. I liken her temper to that of a volcanic eruption. She has an unhealthy obsession with numbers, and she loves Kuching laksa to death. She is strange, but she is my mother.
The earlier memory I have of her was a painful one - apparently I did something wrong and hands were slapping me on both of my cheeks, I was crying and suddenly there was a drop of red on the floor. The slapping stopped. The white of the tissue turned red and smelt sharply metallic. Suddenly she was crying, as one tissue after another was rapidly discarded on the floor and she was hugging me, red smearing on her shirt, and I felt strangely happy.
Growing up, I have always resented how she never resemble the kind mothers in story books. I was considered a 'problem child' and I never could seem to satisfy her, no matter how well I am doing academically. I later resorted to thinking she hates me because I am not the eldest daughter she wants.
...yeah love is pain
I can never truly remember when it started happening, but suddenly she did not seem as cruel as I had seen her. It's probably part of growing up, but I now feel I can understand her more if I bother to see things from her point of view. I may not agree with her all the time, but at least I do know now that underneath all the hostility she does care about me.
Mother, I will work hard here, so please do take care of yourself.
