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The Day You Went Away
@ Saturday, 28 February 2009
This is a picture I found on FaceBook, taken by someone I don't know but what can I say, it is the best picture taken of the night I left Brunei. My dearest daddy was standing behind me! Note I still had short hair then, now it's shoulder-length.
Here is a little something I wrote a while ago, of the day I left Brunei but from my friend's point of view. Experimenting with role-play writing, something I want to do for a long time. Here goes!
You told me long ago, "I will leave here someday". You told me over and over again over the years but I never believe the day will come.
Now you stood there, the departure gate behind you. Is that regret in your body language, is that tears shining in your eyes? Is it sadness I am feeling, because you are leaving me, as you always say you would?
You hold the hand of a fellow friend following the same path as you, and you smiled widely. The other hand you raise it to the air, and you said in the hyper voice unique to you: "People! I'll be back! Wait for me, yo!"
The crowd around me erupted: the friends you accumulate over the years. Several wept. Several put on brave faces, determined not to cry. I cupped my hands around my mouth and screamed, "Remember what you just said!"
You grinned one last time at us, and led your weeping partner-in-crime through the door. From behind the translucent door we watched the silhouette that is you gradually fade from sight. Your friends stood looking at the departure gate, disbelief on their face. Like me, they never expect you to go.
They slowly left, huddling in groups, comforting each others' loss. But nobody can understand that my loss is greater than theirs, my sorrow beyond describing. Your two best pals came up to me, trying to console me. He pat me on the back, his eyes down on the floor, hiding his emotion; she looked up at me through teary eyes, holding my hand.
Two days later, my mobile phone rang at a very unsocialised hour. Sleepily, I grabbed the phone and without looking at the caller, picked up the call. "Hello?" I said groggily.
"Guess who this is!" A loud hyper voice pierce my ears. Who else could it be? You. A slow smile spread over my face as I sat up in bed, suddenly refreshed.
"What's up?"
Labels: random rambles
Jolene Wong blogged @ 5:38 PM | 0 Comments
I declare today: the Everything-Go-Wrong Day
@ Thursday, 26 February 2009
I'm bored so I'm going to post this in a ballad form.
Half past two in the afternoon
I was late for my class
Going out the door
There was a power cut
It lasted for three damn hours
During which (minor) darkness reign
The Godolphin girls complaining
They couldn't see the board (must be blind)
Chemistry sir, try to made up
big formulas on the board
Geography teacher, try to cheer us up
presenting us with mock papers
The temperature ain't dropping
The windows ain't opened
The Godolphin girls were warm enough
The (minor) darkness ain't funny
'Twas kinda creepy
The Godolphin girls were scared (ooh!)
Oh today, oh today
is the Everything-Go-Wrong Day
Oh today, oh today
is the Everything-Go-Wrong Day
Twenty past eight at night
I was content in my room
Flipping thru chemistryworld
The fire alarm went off
It was the real deal
Someone's damn hair dryer
Spare us poor Godolphin girls
Shivering out in the cold
House mistress, try to made up
Rushed to the scene sharpish
Mr Kale*, try to be useful
Ordered us out the cold IMMEDIATELY
Outside it was darkish
Body heat was escaping
The Godolphin girls suffered
I ain't finish with chemistryworld
I won't pardon the flame!
It was just a hair dryer
Oh today, oh today
is the Everything-Go-Wrong Day
Oh today, oh today
is the Everything-Go-Wrong Day
* Name has been changed to prevent Blogger.com from being filtered.
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 8:34 PM | 0 Comments
YUI x Jesse McCartney
@ Wednesday, 25 February 2009
I found this video on YouTube...love it so much! Thank you, kitsymeow, whoever you are! Why Don't You Kiss Her is one of Jesse McCartney's earlier songs and is a song I was crazy about. (And still is crazy about!) The video footage is taken from a Japanese Movie called タイヨウのうた (Taiyou no Uta, also A Song To The Sun), in which YUI starred as the main female lead character. The movie also feature three of YUI's songs, Good-Bye Days, Skyline and It's Happy Line, all of which is compiled in her single Good-Bye Days. So now enough with the babble, onto the video!
Labels: random rambles, YUI fanaticness
Jolene Wong blogged @ 11:17 PM | 0 Comments
Exclusivelyforkhy@ping-yui.net
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Tagged by Khyrriah! Damn ya, Kreko comrade!
* WHAT'S THIS?
1. What's you name? = Wong Shing Ping Jolene
2. Nicknames = Ping
3. Relationship status = happily single
4. Zodiac sign = Virgo
5. Male or female or transgendered? = female
6. Elementary = SM Chung Hwa, BSB
7. Middle School = SM Berakas
8. High School = SM Berakas
9. College = PTE Berakas, The Godolphin School
10. Hair colour = dark brunette
11. Long or short? = mid-length
12. Height = no idea, shorter than average
13. Do you have a crush on someone? = heck, no
14. What do you like about yourself? = good company
15. Piercing = ears
16. Tattoos = nil, nada
17. Righty or lefty? = lefty
* FIRSTS
1. First surgery = nada
2. First piercing = 14 years old
3. First best friend = Desmond Tan
4. First sport you joined = skipping
5. First pet = tortoise
6. First vacation = Miri
7. First concert = nada
8. First crush = Dexter Goh
* RIGHT NOW
1. Eating = biscuits
2. Drinking = water
3. I'm about to = study
4. Listening to = Brian Adams - I Do It For You
5. Waiting for = time to pass
* YOUR FUTURE
1. Want kids? = no
2. Want to get married? = no
3. Careers in mind = Geologist/part-time writer
* WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
1. Lips or eyes? = eyes
2. Shorter or taller? = taller
3. Older or younger? = older
4. Romantic or spontaneous? = both
5. Nice stomach or nice arms? = both?
6. Sensitive or loud? = something in between
7. Hook-up or relationship? = relationship
8. Trouble maker or hesitant? = hesitant
* HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed a stranger? = no
2. Drank hard liquor? = no
3. Lost glasses or contacts? = no
4. Broken someone's heart? = yes
5. Had your own heart broken? = once
6. Turned someone down? = yes
7. Cried when someone died? = no
8. Liked a friend that is a girl? = yes, but I'm straight
* DO YOU BELIEVE
1. Yourself? = forced to in most circumstances
2. Miracles? = slightly
3. Heaven? = no
4. Santa Claus? = no
5. Kiss on the first date? = yes
6. Angels? = no
* ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1. Is there one person you want to be right now? = yes
2. Had more than one boyfriend at one time? = yes, I feel guilty of course
3. Answered these questions truthfully = yes
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 1:12 PM | 0 Comments
I am lost somewhere
@ Monday, 23 February 2009
Half term had ended. Just like that.
There is this frustration in me. What had I spent the whole freaking half term on?!
Answer: Work shadowing at the Natural History Museum. I know. Yeah~ thanks, but it was damn boring. Yes. BORING!!!
I am disappointed, really. Maybe because I had been expecting something more...interesting. But anyways, the fact that I didn't manage to go anywhere (aside from watching several films) really frustrated me. A lot. I didn't even venture as far as Oxford Street. Well, Heathrow is another matter. Don't dwell into it. That place bring back memories I don't want remembered.
So for this upcoming exeat, I'm gonna go up to London, and do all the things that I didn't manage to do during half term. Squeeze a week into a weekend. Gah. Crazy not yet.
On Valentine's Day I stumbled into bed at 2am, the song Happy BeakUp playing annoyingly in my head. Yes. Indeed, a very happy compromise. 'We never know each other.' Fine with me, since I'll probably scream bloody murder if he approach me again anyways.
A song I am addicted to now:
Too Lost In You
Sugarbabes
Love Actually OST
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
Ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 12:05 PM | 0 Comments
Take A Bow
@ Sunday, 15 February 2009
I know it - he's ignoring me.
Took me long enough, but yeah, I have just realised it. I have to stop lying to myself, really. The end is now. I feel it, but what frustrated me is why I can't let go.
I have hold in my anger for too long. Too angry. At him, but mostly at myself. Knowing perfectly well what is happening but choose to ignore it, to pretend it is not happening. I am a fool.
Coming to this realisation, I am just another prisoner waiting for the dreaded death sentence. Waiting for the day he will properly tell me it is the end. I will not scream, will not want vengeance, because it is clear from the very beginning this is how the ending is going to be like.
No other song can describe my feelings more now...
Take A Bow
Leona Lewis
Ohhh, oooo...
The flowers are all faded now
Along with your letters
They will never see the light of day
Cause I'll never take them out
There's no turning back
It's for the better
Baby I deserve more than empty words
And promises
I believed everything you said
And I give you the best I had
Oh
So take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
Like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow...
The future's about to change
Before you know it
The curtain closes
Take a look around
There's no one in the crowd
I'm throwing away the pain
And you should know that your performance
Made me strong enough
So take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
Like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow...
Well it must have been slight of hand
Cause I still can't understand
How I could never see
Just what a fool believed
Mmmm
But the lies they start to show
Tell me how does it feels to know
Right now that I wont be around
So baby before where ever you are
Take a bow
Cause you've takin everything else (you've takin everything else)
You played the part like a star you played it so well (so well)
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end (End)
I gave you love
All you gave me was pretend
So now take a bow
Take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part (I gave you all my love)
like I star you played it so well (I gave you all my love)
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love (Ohhhh)
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 8:14 PM | 0 Comments
valentine's day with the usual irony
@ Saturday, 14 February 2009
Today. Is Valentine's Day.
Today. Is Wan Shin's birthday.
Today. Is another ironic day.
Today. I (forced) threw myself into joining a party of people enjoying Valentine's Day. I hate February the 14th soooo freaking much. Why can't the world let me hate it in peace?
Brunei Hall. The paired up ones scattered everywhere, trying to cover up the couple-ness with a few other couples.
The London Underground. A mad man with a tiny woman played music on guitars and violin, singing love songs to nobody in particular (and demanding money, or 'donations' afterwards). Not forgetting the couples, urrgghh.
FaceBook. WTF is all the sickly 'Free Love' virtual Valentine gifts anyway? Trying to make me feel worse cos I'm not very popular (and thus receive no 'Free Love' virtual Valentine gifts?).
Heck. I hate today. Very, very much.
So I woke up early. And tried to research for my seminar society talk. And went to Camden Town with Ili. And see Arif off at Heathrow with Ain. Distracting myself.
Hell, he's sooo gonna die, yes, HIM!!
I think I'm in a too unstable state to blog now. Do understand that a person feel most insecure on this stupid day.
I think I rather prefer Friday the 13th.
OK, I can't deny that nothing good happened today. The look-see at Camden Town was enjoyable enough, we wandered around the market for more than the intended half an hour. Plus, Ren Fah just joined me for a chat. Very nice guy, and easily upset (too sensitive, lor).
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 8:24 PM | 0 Comments
I'm down with a bug.
@ Thursday, 12 February 2009
Bug. I was stuck in bed all day, a bin by my bedside in case I puke. Outside my dorm room, the day girls ran up and down the corridor. Boom boom boom. Damn noise pollution. My sarcasm hadn't worked, so after lying in bed and being tormented by the day girls' stupid footsteps for three hours, I got up, wrapped the duvet around me and went to the day girls' study down the corridor from my room. I must had looked very sick because, after my sarcastic complaint, they promised to tip-toe when walking along the corridor. My problem, or at least part of it, is solved.
One never would expect to get bugs in UK, especially in a prestigious boarding school, no? But here I am, lying in bed, feeling very sorry for myself. I had puked three times last night and the sick taste still lingered in my mouth, refusing to go away. Sister Gill had given me a sachet of powdery white stuff to put in my drink, telling me it will help replace the fluids I had puked. It tasted like vomit, well, everything tasted like vomit for the moment anyway. I get the day off from school and I desperately need to pack for Half Term, but my body feel weak, I type this post with difficulty.
When asked why the others are healthy and well save me and Yisan, who is suffering as well, I have no answer. Yisan's theory is the salmon that we ate in the scrambled eggs yesterday morning had gone bad...but why are the others all right? So it remains a mystery, the source of our dearest bug. Damn. One can actually sue Chartwells for this, but heck, at least I get a day off.
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 11:26 AM | 0 Comments
sun's out!
@ Tuesday, 10 February 2009
It's not raining today, yay! Sun's out! It is chilly out, but inside the building, preferably a room with windows that let the sunlight in, one can really feel the heat. I like the heat, makes me think of Brunei. Anyone knowing me well enough will know when I am not The Hermit, I am The Crazy Girl who love standing under the sun. So today I'm happy!
Am listening to my long forgotten Chinese songs collection and came across this song by Jolin Tsai. I used to be totally crazy about her, but it was a passing phase. Now YUI is my new idol!
This song is good, I've included the translation for my Malay friends.
天空 Sky
蔡依林 Jolin Tsai
聽著自已的心跳 沒有規則的跳躍
我安靜的在思考 並不想被誰打擾
我們曾緊緊擁抱 卻又輕易地放掉
那種感覺很微妙 該怎麼說才好
時間分割成對角 停止你對我的好
瓦解我們的依靠
在你離開之後的天空 我像風箏尋一個夢
雨後的天空 是否有放晴後的面容
我靜靜的望著天空 試著尋找失落的感動
只能用笑容 期待著雨過天晴的彩虹
Translation
Listening to my heart beating, jumping irregularily
I am quietly pondering, not wanting to be disturbed by anyone
We had tightly embraced, yet let go easily
That kind of feeling is very subtle, what is the right thing to say?
Time is divided diagonally, halting your treating me well
Disintegrate our dependence on each other
After you left, I'm like a kite in the sky searching for a dream
After a bout of rain, does the sky appear to be clearing up?
I calmly gaze at the sky, trying to seek a feeling of loss
I can only use a smile to await the rainbow that follows the sky's clearing
Hmmm, I guess that's all...xD
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 4:48 PM | 0 Comments
TAG.GED
@ Monday, 9 February 2009
RULES: Tag 25 people to do the same thing. Meh, I won't bother.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Don't think so, but I like to think it's after my father.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Erm, I think two weeks ago. From stress.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I guess my handwriting's ok.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Bacon. But too much can kill me.
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Over my dead body.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yeah, most probably. People just become friends with me without realising it. I think.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
A lot. But I drastically reduce my usage when I came here because, people just don't get me.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yeah, why, are we not supposed to have them?
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I would, if given the chance.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Koko Crunch.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No. Heck.
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate Vanilla.
13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Emm, their personality? I sort of can feel what kind of person you are, just by your face alone...
14. RED OR PINK?
Neither. I dislike both colours. No, I HATE pink.
15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My lust.
16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My family & friends.
17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
No. And people, don't bother. Waste of time. Makes me wonder why I am doing it.
18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Black jeans and blue-white Converse.
19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW:
YUI - My Generation
20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Gray.
21. FAVORITE SMELL?
Grass after rain.
22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My dearest daddy.
23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS NOTE?
I do not know the person who tagged me.
24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Football, badminton and American football.
25. HAIR COLOR?
95% black, 5% brown
26. EYE COLOR?
Dark chocolate brown.
27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No. Nothing wrong with my vision.
28. FAVORITE FOOD?
*glaring at someone* SOTONG!!
29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Depends.
30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Yes Man.
31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Green & white stripes.
32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Both. I prefer Autumn though.
33. HUGS OR KISSES?
Both.
34. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Ice-cream. Whatever.
35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
The bored.
36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
The lazy.
37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
The God Delusion.
38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Laptop, no mouse pad.
39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing. I don't watch TV.
40. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?
Solo piano.
41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Both on a certain level.
43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Manipualting people. Or so my daddy says.
44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Brunei.
45. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS?
Do scars count?
46. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Hopefully anyone who saw this post and think they like being tagged.
47. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFIGANT OTHER?
At Brunei Hall.
People. Thank me for not tagging any of you!
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 5:40 PM | 0 Comments
les misérables
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Bummer. It's raining. All...day...long. All the katak hibernating. Apakan. I doubt they even have katak here in Salisbury. Gah, I want sunshine laaaaa...
Well, so today I'm pretty much down because of the weather. And the Human Geography mock, Human Geography mock...arrgghh gawd I don't have enough details!! What to do! I wrote too much for the four marks question - answer out of topic also, and too little on the six marks questions. And only halfway through the nine marks question. I die la...
Oh yeah I've taken up a task of creating a Vampire Knight blog layout for Wan Shin. Looking forward to fooling around with Photoshop! Hahaha. And yeah, I made this layout using Paint...fun la. But a bit pixelled, hate hate hate.
Oh and since it's a Monday I'm supposed to have lessons all day, but Mr Brown and Mr Davis had stuff to attend to, so no class! Yeah! Meaning I can study for the Human Geograqphy mock. But I screw it up anyways...oh well...
I wanted to watch Les Misérables last time in London but I kept forgetting...now not showing anymore, arrgghh. What I noticed is the Kings of Leon poster is nearly similar to the poster of Les Misérables. Gathering evidence...
Not a fan of Kings of Leon but can't deny that I like this song of theirs:
Was addicted to it for two weeks after the Christmas hols. And it's not as bad as the name sounded, it's just a name. The lyrics are fine. By Ping's standard, this ain't even a dirty song yet.
Great, I'm tagged. Again. Another tagged I had to sort out. Oh well. Onto taggy that is.
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 4:13 PM | 0 Comments
I got away from the viscious cycle
@ Sunday, 8 February 2009
I just woke up from a very fullfilling 8 hour sleep and just want to blog. It's like an addiction...I think...blogging.
Finally, I remembered what I dreamt about last night. It's very scary having nightmares you can't remember about, you know? Which was what happened to me for the past two weeks. I would wake up sweating but had no recollection whatsoever. I take it as a bad sign.
My dream last night was like this:
I was lost in a tropical jungle. For some reason, the trees are very tall, and when I say very tall, I mean it reaches up over 1km in height. And not because I'm short. *will still get pissed off if anyone talk about my height*
So I was lost, and I was trying to find the way out using the sun. But because I had no map/compass with me, and the tall trees, I was unable to get out of this troublesome situation. I wandered around a bit and saw a rabbit with a vest and glasses on.
Wait. A rabbit with a vest and glasses on? What on earth is going on?
Then I woke up. I think it's because I realised something is not right. Sorry to burst your balloon of eagerness, people. This just is the way life is like.
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 10:34 AM | 0 Comments
Four In The Morning
@ Saturday, 7 February 2009
Oh well, I'm bored anyway, so I'll do this. Tagged by Ili about two months ago.
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
What Have You Done
Well I'm actually seething inside because of someone...but when the volcano burst its crater, he will die. 100% guarantee.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF:
Miss Popular
I don't think I'm THAT popular...well maybe for the wrong reason...back in Brunei.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Question Existing
First thing I look for is probably looks. Tall, fit and preferably with ebbs.
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Rock Me In
I'm lonely in my room...I think...
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
U Got Long Way 2 Go
Be a geologist. Yes, I indeed got a long way to go.
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Hollaback Girl
To preserve the environment so future generation can enjoy it too. And yes to prove girls can do better than guys.
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Listen To Your Heart
I am honest and sharp-tongued, and prefer the truth even if it hurts. And I always listen to MY heart.
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Day You Went Away
Err...I think they miss their troublesome eldest daughter...and yet at the same time relieved of not having to put up with me.
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Unfaithful
FaceBook, stuff that have nothing to do with studies...gah.
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
My Baby
Twins, maybe?
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Bleeding Love
I'm talking about my ex-best friend. She makes people hate her, and she bleeds love, but nobody cares anymore.
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You
Finding the Mr. Right, I think...
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Finally
A geologist. Finally I am on my first steps to achieve that dream.
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Wake Up Call
I need to knock some sense out from him.
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Blur
Gawd. I don't do one night stands.
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Gimme More
Err. I'm sure I'm not THAT sexual.
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Right Where You Want Me
My uni course is within my reach...
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Ain't It Funny
Meeting the Mr. Right but did not realise it.
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Right Now (Taste the Victory)
Secret it will remain.
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Radar
I am NOT a nympho! I just have a vast collection of dirty songs!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Candy From Strangers
There must be something wrong with my shuffle. Well, if they are guys they are hot, and if they are girls they are sexy. This applies internally and externally. And once again, apologies and curses went to my weird taste in music.
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Four In The Morning
Err, ok.
Another Taggy...now this is getting a bit annoying...
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or Take your picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, dont fix your hair... Just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with no editing.
4. Post these instructions with your picture.
5. Tag 5 people to do this.
So here is my not-so-flattering picture...
Friend: You have the same piercing eyes as him.
Me: Who?
Friend: Him la. The guy you are going out with.
Me: I'm not going out with him.
Friend: You're just embarrassed.
Me: ...
Another song taggy...
Are you male or female?
Last Night
femelle. French for female.
Describe yourself.
Love Left For Me
Messed up after THE BREAK UP. I should have gotten over it, it's been nearly a year.
What do people feel when they're around you?
Boom
Ultimate hyperness radiating from me from pure adrenaline with not one hint of Red Bull.
Describe your current relationship.
When There Was Me And You
Because I like the view; Yeah this current one is pretty messed up in its own way.
Where would you like to be now?
Leave (Get Out)
Somewhere without nightmares I couldn't remember.
How do you feel about love?
Beautiful Girls
It's a battle. Fight for your right.
What' your life like?
Walking Away
So bad I want to walk away.
What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Someone's Watching Over Me
Someone who loves unconditionally. My Dad. =)
Say something nice:
I'm Sorry (I Don't Love You No More)
This is the nicest thing I will say to a guy I fall out of love with. The truth.
People, please thank me for ending this viscious game of tagging HERE. *applause in background* Now, I take a bow. (Rihanna)
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 4:15 PM | 0 Comments
shivers down the spine
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Today it's his birthday, easy to remember because it's just a flip around of Solon's birthday, which falls on July 2nd. Happy Birthday, man.
Here's a picture he is very proud of:
He pissed people off all the time but I think he's the only one immune to my sarcasm. And me no immune to his sick jokes. He's now officially legal and yeah, ready to rock the world with his outgracious ideas. I never win in any argument against him. Humbug.
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 12:00 AM | 0 Comments
Friends No More
@ Tuesday, 3 February 2009
I am deeply disappointed in a girl I regarded as my friend up to September 2008. She had betrayed me, destroyed the trust I have in her. I tried to overlook this whenever we chat after that, but I just cannot trust her anymore. It is very difficult for me to say this, but I am afraid I have to end - terminate - this friendship.
I did not forget all the good times we had. I cannot forget the unique Guy Numbering system of hers, and all the obsession with Anime, which we shared and was what brought us together as friends. I confided in her and we laughed over lame jokes. I introduced her to Adie and Farhan and Qays. And my gang of friends. We shared Tohoshinki songs. I gave her advices. She introduced me to Salihin, who shared my obsession with Death Note. We made a lot of memories, and I cherished them, but apparently this is one-sided.
I cannot mention the nature of her betrayal here, I can only say it is a painful experience for me. Nurhafizah, otherwise known as Shen: you are the one initiating this, so please do not regret and come crying to me. This is a permanent decision. I do not intend to give a second chance to you, because I do not believe you will not do it again.
Snow falls from the sky; it falls and coat even the ugliest thing and made it seem beautiful. I saw the snow-coated part of you, but when the snow melted I am unable to face your ugliness. My memories of you will always be the snow-coated you; your ugliness a stranger to me, a stranger I will never acknowledge as a friend, ever again.
Now Playing: Jesse McCartney - It's Over
Jolene Wong blogged @ 8:02 PM | 0 Comments
sakai see snow (alliteration haha, WTF)
@ Monday, 2 February 2009
First thing I do in every morning when I wake up is to open the curtains. Never mind UK at 6.30am is still pitch black, I still open them anyway. It's out of habit. Anyway I woke up this morning, opened the curtains and yeah saw something weird. Something pale was covering everything. Hmmm. Weird. So I open the window. Something white...and cold on the window sill. Took me a while but then I realised it's SNOW!!
Yeah I instantly took my Samsung i8510 and began snapping pictures! I only post group photos here, you can see the rest of my pictures here.
left to right: me, Wan Shin, Georgie, Nabilah, Aini, Gabby, Erna
left to right: Yisan, Nabilah, Hani, me
Making snow angels!
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 5:05 PM | 0 Comments
eleven past eleven
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Solange sighed heavily, lying back among the bed sheets, restless. She couldn't sleep. Staring up at the top of the canopy bed, she gave an irritated groan and rolled onto her side. She glanced at the digital clock on the bedside table. Nine past eleven. Where the hell is that jerk, she thought angrily. Lately Steven kept coming home late, and went out early in the morning. She really hate waiting up for him, but if she didn't she would not see him at all. She sniffed. So much for moving in together.
A slam. Solange's heart skipped a beat, and she lay still, listening. It could be Steven. But then she heard barely audible voices coming from the apartment below her, and her heart sank. Must be the newly-wed couple. She envied them. They were so happy together. Not stale, like between her and Steven.
She glanced up from the sheets. Eleven past eleven. She sighed again, and was about to roll onto her other side when she remembered something. Eleven past eleven. That brought back memories, two different ones but both with Steven. She smiled sadly, reminiscing the past...
Two years ago, on a cold, rainy night. Solange was caught in the heavy downpour and was wet throughly when she finally seek shelter at a bus stop. Her work clothes clung onto her and she was cold. It was late, around half past ten at night. She doubt any bus would pass by the bus stop she was at, but until the rain stop, she really didn't have a choice.
She must had been at the bus stop for fifteen minutes when she vaguely saw a figure making its way towards the bus stop. Another person caught in the rain, she thought. The figure gradually morphed into a person as the distance between her and it decreased. A man. Holding an umbrella, and not the slightest bit soaked, judged from his big umbrella. Solange cursed herself bitterly. Why did she not bother buying an umbrella. There was no use regretting, but she regretted anyway.
The man folded the big umbrella once under the shelter of the bus stop. He glanced at Solange, saw her wet clothes clinging onto her and looked away. Oh, so gentlemen do still exist in this freaking world, she thought sarcastically. She sniffed dramatically and looked away too. Best not give him any ideas. He looked well-dressed enough, but no one can really predict what a man is like underneath the guise of clothes and profession.
A period of awkward slience followed, broken only by the sound of raindrops falliing on the bus stop roof. Solange looked at the man from the corner of her eyes. Tall and lean. Not handsome but not cute either. An average guy. She was about to assess him fully when she caught herself. Wait, Why am I checking him out? she scolded herself, and looked down at her lap instead, her eyes itching to look at him again.
"Nice weather," he suddenly said.
Solange's head shot up. His voice is deep and rich. Very musculine. Made her feel safe. Stop, she instructed herself, and put up an annoyed face. Yes, sarcasm is her forte, and made her feel safe or not, he had just made an extremely lame remark.
"Oh yes, indeed. God love us so, to trap two souls in an isolated place with sheets of waterfall from the sky. Yes. Nice weather."
Nothing could prepare Solange for his reaction. He began laughing, the delicious voice resonating in her ears. She soon felt her annoyance fade away, replaced by laughter too. No idea what was so funny, but it felt so right.
After the laughter died away, the man turned to Solange and smiled. "Steven."
Solange smiled back. "Solange."
Just then a bus pulled up to the bus stop, and Solange got onto the bus. She watched the man - Steven - as the bus pulled away from the bus stop. In her hand she held a crumpled bussiness card. His number. The time: eleven past eleven.
On their sixth date, Steven took her to the beach. The sun had completely set by that time, but Solange love the sound of waves lapping against the shoreline. They walked barefoot along the beach, talking about random things, holding hands. Steven reached out for her hand first, on their third date. She laughed at some of the things he told her. Funniest guy she had ever met. It was hard not to develop feelings for him. He is charismatic. Charming. And obviously know how to please her.
They then procceed to sit down on the sand. Steven apologised for not bringing a blanket along, but Solange didn't mind. She rather like the feeling of the cool sand on her skin. They talked about more random things, and gradually their conversation turned flirtatious.
"So, you will you let me?" Steven's dark brown eyes bore into Solange's, making her heart accelerate. OMG this guy is so gorgeous, she thought, before turning her face away from his, mock pouting. "Of course not."
"Aww..." he began protesting, but Solange turned her head back again and kissed him before he could protest further. Their first kiss. Time seemed to stood still at eleven past eleven.
Solange buried her head in the pillow, wishing she could feel as warm as she did back then. The nights are so long and lonely without Steven. Exactly how their relationship had became stale, she did not know. She turned onto her other side, eyes closed, willing herself to sleep.
The next morning, she awoke to the sound of the bedroom door opening slowly. She turned sleepily towards the door, and saw Steven standing in the doorway, a bouquet of flowers in his right hand, looking slightly disappointed she was not asleep. Solange glanced at the digital clock. Eleven past eleven. Steven made his way towards her, balancing a tray of breakfast on his left hand. He set the tray down on the bedside table, handled her the flowers and kissed her.
"I love you, hon."
The date was February the 14th. Valentine's Day.
My first story since the retirement of my writer's block. What do you think? My friend Solon (the poet) told me inspirations are everywhere, and he is right, as usual. The inspiration of this story came from - you guessed it - my digital clock displaying the time 11:11. This is also my first happy ending story in years. (My last happy ending story was written in 2005, about a 7 year old boy's confession to the girl he like.) Comments are welcome. And yes I know Solange ans Steven sounds a bit seedy, and this story is a bit early. Should came out on the 14th actually, but yeah I guess who cares. xD
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Jolene Wong blogged @ 11:11 AM | 0 Comments
An imbalance in hormone level? You decide.
@ Sunday, 1 February 2009
February 2009. I am now in UK for half a year. I don't know if it's because of the stress of so much prep or something else, but I have been pretty much emo-ish since the start of the year. I keep making myself feel guilty for things that were obviously not my fault, and I tried telling myself that, really, but a voice in my head just keep screaming, "It's you! It's YOU!! IT'S YOU!!!" I haven't heard the voice for over a year and I think I need time out. Desperately.
Since coming back from the Christmas holidays I had been weight down almost constantly by prep, prep and more prep. I know there are people out there who would said (in an IDK monotone) "Oh heck, if you have so much work, why are you even blogging, go back to do your so-called mountain of prep." OK. I tried. I really tried. Most of the 'so-called mountain of prep', people, is finished just shy of their dateline. But don't applaude just yet. More prep is to come after those are submitted.
That is why I am screaming.
Most of the time it's just a silent scream, but as time passed the silence of the scream has acquired a voice, which is becoming increasingly louder. I startled both Ain and Ili with the scream, and at night I woke up drenched in sweat not remembering what I had been dreaming of. They told me to calm down. Heck, calm down indeed. I started having these throbbing headaches recently which drives me wild, if I am not before, because I couldn't concentrate. Couldn't finish this damn MOUNTAIN OF PREP. I seriously don't know what is wrong with me.
I got some paracetamol and it seem to work. The headache gone, I started on my prep again. I completed half of the total workload and feeling a bit tired anyway, took a nap. And I had the nightmare that I can't remember again. It really scared me. I called my dad and rather than feeling better after the phone call, I felt worst. My headache returned and I down more paracetamol, but it doesn't seem to work anymore. I tried to finish up my prep throught the cloud of headache, but I can't. I think I've reached my limit. Worst of all, I had no idea why I am like this.
So basically people, it's not that I'm lazy or anything. I'm just really, really, out of sorts. Not me anymore. I want to find somewhere and hide, solitude. Maybe I'll be all right after that. Maybe it's all in my head and I really am going crazy after all, like what Hafiz suggested. Maybe. I don't know which to believe anymore.
If sanity is a cliff, then I had no idea where the edge of the cliff is, because of the thick fog. I may be on my way down to the valley below, drawing nearer to insanity. I may still be on the cliff, but drawing dangerously closer to the edge. Whichever it might be, I just want out. NO MORE. Please...
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Now Playing: Tatu - All The Things She Said
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